Hating Hurting

I try to work though it and do what's best for my body, but it kills me. Getting up every morning when I feel terrible. Driving to work even though it hurts. Smiling and being nice to everyone even though my brain feels foggy and the pain makes me want to start screaming. It's killing me. The thought of another 50 years of this? It's terrifying. I'm not looking forward to the future... and for a girl who had such big dreams... it hurts more than the fibromyalgia