Aching and whining

The hardest thing lately for me has been the aching pain. The kind that leaves you drained and yet you can't crawl into bed because even laying down is painful. What I'd give for a back massage right now or something to take my mind off of the pain. It's also really hard knowing that I wouldn't be in pain right now if I hadn't received bad news about mum and dad. For people who don't believe that I'm sick they sure help contribute to it