Maybe

Have you ever wanted to hid the fact that you're sick? To mask the pain and fatigue and everything else and just pretend that you aren't chronically ill? I had a friend who asked me why I air my dirty laundry almost immediately after knowing someone. My response? When they know you're sick and have ptsd among other issues they know what they're getting into, and many leave... but at least I know that the ones who stay are for real.

I worry a lot about the future and what my life will be life. I could probably go my whole life having friends, family, even a spouse not know that I"m sick. I could do it. But would I want to? Some people say I talk about it too much, that I tell people too freely, but it's there, it's a part of my life. it's a large part actually. So what do I do? Do I screen potential dates by telling them early on? Do I only date other "sickos" people who are suffered like me? Or do I crawl into the "im sick" hole and die to relationships? I say screw everyone. I'm going to tell everyone and anyone and get people to stand up and listen for once, listen and hear about this terrible affliction that affects so many people. And many I'll find someone to stand up for me by my side.... maybe