Let's Pretend

Can't you see past the smile? I know it doesn't reach my eyes.
They reflect a little pain. And they're mirrors to the lies.
Oh yeah I'm great. Doing swell. Might run a marathon today.
And we'll bake a dozen cookies and then all sit around and play!
I can't live like that, never could. But I'll try for you.
And I know the truth hurts you. And so I'll lie for you.

It's a war and I'm not winning. The waters are rising
but I'm not swimming anymore.
Oh darling I'd pretend for years.
I'd swallow all the tears that drown my soul.

Will it help? Is there air to breathe there with you?
Cause I can't hold my breath for long.
And I fear it will be long gone quite soon.

You're an underwater tunnel. I can hear you calling out my name.
Can't you see it kills me babe, I'm too tired to play this game.
Oh I want it, want the classic fairytale
White knight, white fence, and a healing holy grail.
But it's not there. And I don't dare to drop the gate.

Could we let the walls fall down?
Would the flood raise me up or will i drown?
I think it's time to take a chance, at this second glance,
just look at what there is to gain. And if it brings just one real smile
it might be worth this pain for a little while.
Might be worth playing pretend,
Cause then maybe then there'll be a happy ending here for me.